The guy

 Everyone always says when you know you know. I had many moments when I thought I knew. I guess some people don't never really know. Maybe he just hasn't come along. If your happily married, how did you know. What was the feeling like? Whatever that feeling is I want to feel it one day. I always manage to find someone think things are going great then get it with that "It's not you it's me". The guy I'm talking to now we have our ups and down. We not together although people think we are cause we always talking and I'm forever at his house but we are like best friends with feelings if that make sense. He not ready for a relationship hell neither am I but I'll wait and not just give up on him. My only fear is that this is my third time going through this. I waited literally two years with both the first and second time only for them to start dating someone else literally after I just let go. I hope my time don't get wasted again. I just want to be happy like how I was when I was younger. 😏

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