How can I be so stupid.
How can I be so stupid for a nigga that clearing show me he doesn't care about me, he doesn't love me, and if I left, it wouldn't even bother him at all. I done moved in with a nigga that couldn't even help me when I needed him the most. He talks down to me and makes me feel less of a person. Nothing I ever do is good enough for him unless I'm suck him and letting him get a nut off or he is using my car to get back and forth to work. He doesn't care how he makes me feel. I'm just here to be his punching bag. Maybe what my ex did wasn't that bad. Perhaps this is the worst relationship I've been in. I am beating myself up trying to make things work. Trying there for someone who really doesn't even see me for real. I sit here and cry because I can't even have a simple conversation without it turning into an argument. I got accused of giving him something before he even knew what it was. I got tested to prove to him I didn't have any...